Hello!
I started doing a blog post for last year back in November but I got very depressed and started crying because of how truly shite it was so I'm going to refrain from trying it again. I'll just do an overall recap and we'll move on.
So here we go... I started the year in what I thought was my dream job, working at The Avenue music venue in Chesterfield which had literally just opened up. I was the social media coordinater, in charge of getting the word out about the venue, getting people to show up to the opening, getting in touch with the local news etc. I was also the venue's photographer, taking photos of the venue as we were approaching the opening night, giving tasters of how it looked and then taking photos actually on the opening night too. Come friday morning after the opening weekend, I got a call to say they weren't doing as well as they thought they were and that they were making cuts, me being one of them. Boom, dream destroyed. Back I went to Tesco cafe.
I spent the rest of the year stuck at the cafe, feeling like I had to be loyal because they took me back in when I was desperate for a job. I was trapped, and that's how I felt all year, trapped in my life.
It was one thing after another. First losing the job, then having to go back to the cafe, then Aiden had to move back to his mum's after I'd asked the landlord if he could move in and they put the rent up!? So yeah, thought better to be safe than sorry with the estate agents being downstairs, in case they were watching out for him after I said no. I had something happen which was ridiculously painful to the extent that I actually felt numb and didn't know how to react. It was something I was naive enough to think wouldn't happen to me but unfortunately it did and I've had to deal with it, but I won't go into detail on that one.
We had a few animal deaths; the most painful being my lovely little Dill. My 4, nearly 5, year old guinea pig that we had from being 2 weeks old. He really was a little character and I'm devastated he's gone. We also lost 4 gorgeous little kittens. Loki and Luna, our not even 1 year old cats, who are also brother and sister, decided to... yeah. A few weeks later, 4 black and white kittens arrived. I knew they all had homes to go to so I did'nt want to get attached, but they were tiny kittens so of course I was obsessed with them. Unfortunately though, with Luna being so young and because of the incest, the kittens got sudden death syndrome and became really weak and started to die one by one after 2 weeks old. It was heartbreaking, Julie was absolutely devastated. Just before that I got a teary phonecall one morning from her saying that one of her guinea pigs had died so we had that too. It sucked.
I would say apart from all that and a few other things, it was an alright year but it wasn't. Don't get me wrong, I had a nice time in Matlock Bath with Aiden for our anniversary, some good days out with people, Go Ape with mum, Ryan, Aiden, Aunty Claire and Kalani, and me, mum and dad did a sponsored walk for alzeimer's society in Clumber park which was great., but that's about it.
Luckily, I had Christmas to look forward to. After working 18 days with 1 day off and 100+ hours, I got to go to France for the week with my family. (I'll do another blog post on it and go into more detail.) It was exactly what I needed to end the year. It was relaxing and I had lots of lie ins and just time to read and chill out with my family. A wonderful Christmas!
Me, Aiden and Julie had our own little Christmas when I got back, on new year's eve. We had Christmas dinner and I had some cool presents off them, it was lovely. That night, for the first time since I was little, me and Aiden actually missed the new year and went to bed early! Think I was probably just eager to end the year as quickly as I could. And that was that.
Don't think I've ever been so pleased to see the back of a year. It was horrible and it seemed to have it out for me from day 1. But... I never see things as a complete failure, there were lots of lessons to be taken away from last year and it's made me a lot stronger.
So here I am in 2018. I've just had my birthday which was a lovely, chilled day which ended in a meal with mum, dad and Aiden (Ryan is in Amsterdam) and I was very spoiled. I'm at Sarah and Dean's in Colchester at the moment, visiting as an extended part of my birthday. Me and Sarah went for a spa day yesterday and we're off to the cinema tonight to see Pitch Perfect 3!
I'm already 100% happier in 2018. I've come into the new year with a completely new outlook and a clean slate. I've left all the crap behind in 2017 and this year is going to be a year of enjoyment! Fun and adventures and new experiences! I've got lots to look forward to and I'm hoping to get a new job at some point and leave the cafe behind.
Happy new year friends, family and other readers! I hope 2018 is filled with love, laughter, smiles, fun and adventures for you all! Don't let things bother you too much, just take it as part of the year and something to learn from. Plan ahead and have things to look forward to, to make it more interesting. Don't let the year pass you by, saying you'll do things another day or another time, get them done! Have a good year!!
Becks xx
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